October 18, 2018

How to speak writer

I'm sure I'm not the only one who worries about this.  Most of the fanfics that I follow aren't always updated at a set time or steady rhythm and I don't always witness the lack of confidence.  Do they feel bad?  Probably?  We all have lives and jobs and families and occasionally we get sick, or the power goes out due to natural disaster, or our computers break.  Sometimes none of that happens, and yet inspiration fails to strike, in spite of having the "perfect" writing day.  We aren't getting paid.  We could potentially get sued if copyright holders decide to press the issue.  Sometimes we have unpopular ships, controversial headcanons, or people that don't seem to understand that CONFLICT is what drives a story and that it's okay - nay, NECESSARY for characters to miscommunicate and do stupid things you don't like in order to move the plot along. 
But we write.  We write because we have something we want to say.  If you have something that you want to say, why don't you write?   

October 16, 2018

I've been trying again, slowly.

I just feel so persecuted, and maybe I should just give up.  Writing is the only thing I'm good at and the only thing that makes me happy, but sharing my writing with people has only brought me pain.

So much for this fandom being mature and understanding.  They just have inflated opinions of themselves, and FF is feeding their egos.

I'm not as good as I was before, I don't think.  My life has changed so much since the first time I started writing, and not for the better.

I shouldn't have to punish myself, though - I did nothing wrong. 

October 1, 2018

So I get my first negative review, and it's from some WHINY FUCKBOY who's narrow-minded standards are so high that I am supposed to be cowed by the fact that they don't get my work, and therefore, it's inferior. Try not to get your self-indulgent wank all over the keyboard.
Fucking honestly, who are you and why do you think that your opinion is so great that you can make or break A FANFICTION THAT I AM NOT GETTING PAID FOR SO WHAT'S WITH THE OVERDRAMATIC SERIOUS FUCKING ATTITUDE!??!!
"My reviews have leveled whole cities! I don't think this story is jerking me off-uh, I mean, going anywhere! I'M THE GOD! I'M THE GOD!!!!!!

I thought I would welcome constructive criticism. I forgot that the Internet doesn't actually know what "constructive" means.

September 19, 2018

I have one train of thought, and Junpei fell asleep on it.

Previously, I had assumed that overusing "apparently" was my biggest fault.  (I mean, Yukari uses "seriously" a lot, but that's a character trait, like Ryuji's "For REAL?!")  Apparently, 😛😏 I also repeat phrases with a slight difference.

Shadowborne, chapter 6:
 He never talked about his sister, and Shinjiro was less than accommodating when she'd tried to ask about it.

Compendium, chapter 3:
 He never talked about his late family, and Shinjiro wasn't very forthcoming with information when she'd asked him, either.

 Now, either I'm forgetful, or Mitsuru is.

I suppose this is what beta readers are for. 

September 18, 2018

I've got to stop feeling bad about not updating my fanfics regularly when most of the ones I read do so sporadically, and they still have followers. I'm still getting kudos, so I guess I'm not doing so bad!

It's a holdover from when I was doing my site, and assholes would CONSTANTLY nag me about why I wasn't posting huge updates every day - as if I wasn't in college at the time! - and why I wouldn't give them free stuff.   This new fandom is much more mature and understanding, and it's nice. 

September 5, 2018

You guys I'm having too much fun with these why do I get into memes 20 years too late?

my name is Ted
i am a bear
i can not score
it's just not fair
'cause when the girls
see me, they run
i tell bear jokes

i make the puns

my name is Aigis
i am the seventh generation Anti-Shadow Suppression Weapon

I believe I have misunderstood the principle of this exercise.

my name is Aki
my friend is dead
i like to punch
things in the head
and when Mitsuru
is too mean,
i tune her out

i drink protein

my name is Minato/Makoto/Sakuya/whatever you want to call me
my hair is blue
i do not speak
i'm just like Yu
and as i fight
humanity's war
i point at Nyx

i am a door


And now, the "lik the bred" meme, Bonafide Monafied!

my name is mona
but i am van
dun ask bout that

when it is nite
u try 2 crep
i claw ur face

u ned to slep

That took longer to write than I thought it would - bad grammar is NOT how I roll.  Mrweh-heh-heh!


Here, for those of you who don't speak LOLcat:

My name is Mona
But I'm a van
Please don't ask about that.
When it is night
And you try to creep
I'll claw your face
You need to sleep!