February 12, 2018

Untitled...No, wait! No Title! Um...can I phone a friend?

So I'm finally going to get to writing these fanfics that I've been planning.  The only trouble is...you guessed it - I can't think of a damn title.

This has always been my problem.  I can come up with characters, plot, jokes, all of that on the fly, but when it comes to titles, nothing seems right.  Most of the time, I just look for a particularly good phrase in the text.  Sometimes it hits me when I'm done.  Oh, and on the rare occasion I come up with the title first? Nothing but blank page all the way down. 

I suppose I shouldn't be so hard on myself.  It's been quite a while since I've even attempted writing anything, and at least the writing itself is still good.  I simply must micromanage and peck everything to death before I'm happy with it.  Deep breaths.

Oh wait, I've got fucking asthma.  😒

February 6, 2018

January 26, 2018

Setting off on the write foot

So here's what's on my mind currently.

I've made up my mind and I'm getting back into a world where writing was my everything. I'm still a bit hesitant and shaky, but I was so much happier when I was writing and sharing my writing with the world, so here goes.

The odd thing is where I'm starting off.

I used to be heavily into fanfiction - which is odd, because I am something of a canonwhore.  I mostly wrote fix fics where I attempted to connect all the plot fragments and inconsistencies I found.  I was NOT a shipper, no way, no how, no sir!  I preferred leaving things the way they were written if at all possible.  Canon was sacred to me.  I know how I'd feel if someone completely altered my work.

Over the years, I've found myself slipping more and more out of that mindset each time I read new fanfics.  I still value plot, characterization, grammar, and decent storytelling above all else...but some of these pairings left me screaming at the screen! 

For my birthday, I decided to treat myself with an invite request to a fanfiction site.  I still have a few weeks before I might get one, so I'm debating with myself whether or not I should throw my hat into the ring and live vicariously through fictional characters like so many others do.  I'm happy to report that I'm sailing popular ships - there's nothing worse than being marooned out there insisting, "No, you guys, I think they really do like each other!!!!"

Also, since I love to rant, speculate, and lecture, I'll be doing that here.  Posts will be tagged FANFIC so you can skip them if you like, to distinguish them from the normal OT posts I occasionally make a few times a year since I've forgotten to blog so much...*ahem*!  It will also keep that site free of my many moods. 

How this will affect my original writing, I'm not sure.  I feel as if I need to stretch my literary muscles before attempting anything for profit.  I just hope I'm not overwhelmed with horrible comments as soon as I post anything.  I'm also worried about my writing schedule.  I tend to write in spurts of madness and have a few dry spots in between.  I suppose I should take this month to put something together so I can post fairly regularly.  I can't afford to have anything resembling a schedule right now.

Well, I hope to be blogging and writing more in 2018.  Wish me luck!

January 25, 2018

I hate when the Internet's spottier than a giraffe...

I was going to make a big, new post today (finally, am I right?), but I don't trust it right now.  I'll just compose it offline and paste it when I get the chance.  Grr...so much for 2018 starting off right! 

December 8, 2017

So, because I've had a massive toothache for the past two months, last night/early this morning I took some powerful shit.

I have been asleep for a total of like 15 hours.  I couldn't get out of bed.  I could barely sit up for long periods of time.  I'm stoned...and my tooth is STILL killing me.

Of course, the Internet decided to do all manner of shit while I was out, and now I have about 8 hours of videos to watch and 'fics to read in addition to the TV I usually watch on Fridays. 

I don't have a point to this, I'm just rambling because it's hot in here and I don't really know what time it is. 

September 15, 2017


DEC 22 - JAN 19

You're tired of babysitting everyone around you today. It seems as if others should be perfectly capable of taking care of themselves. Like it or not, too many people rely on you for support when making important life decisions. Your dependability is both a blessing and a curse now, especially if you long for someone to play a similar mentor-like role for you. Prioritizing your needs is the first step to putting your life back in order. Henrik Edberg wrote, Some things may be equally essential but nothing is more important than a healthy sense of self-esteem and loving yourself.

June 3, 2017

Inexplicably find myself wanting some sushi...

I should probably stop watching so many Japanese things.